BE FRIENDS FOR GOOD

Hi. Another month is coming and it happens to be the month of starting new life for many of you including me! Since i got here, i actually havent been at school as a student but i will be back there from April officially. I have very little credits left to graduate in a year so hope to have enough time to focus on each classes and to work to save money (i am planning to visit Canada in summer) and i am actually supposed to start the new internship related to publishing industry either as a magazine editor assistant, so excited! you know, i find it very unique that we have uniform way and certain time to look for a job in my country, it makes people's life kinda messy for a while and sort of process would make it exteremly competitive between all the applicans. ive already managed to make some process with it so far, so its not that awful at least but nobody knows what will happen so wish me luck:) lol
Speaking of the new start, i just attended the graduation ceremony of my college because almost all my friends would graduate this time:) i actually could not attend itself, which is stupid of me, but i could be at school to celebrate their last moment at least. it was very touching and i gotta be happy and sad at the same time. i will miss you all, be friends for good :)

I KNOW WHAT I WANT

"I know you are doing great, it's easier said than done but you should not put too much pressure on yourself especially for things beyond your control so just let things happen." someone has just told me through the text, he is one of my Canadian friends used to work with me at the office in Van. (It is very touching and kind of him considering my feelings knowing i am doing job-hunting.)  yea right, not only me but look at us, everybody tends to remind ourselves firmly that we "have to" or "should" do that. I assume most people consider job-hunting as sort of negative-"have to" event in our life. I used to see it in that way, but not anymore, i actually enjoy getting know people and analyzing myself to explain who i am to others. how could you get scared to talk about yourself or your passion for the job, not at all !
It's never be obligations bind us to live, nothing but always our decision. It always depends on us, it takes nothing to join the crowd, it takes everything to stand alone. But dont take a step backward just remeber, we are braver than we believe, stronger than we seem and smarter than we think. There's nothing more utterly pathetic than only being caught by someone else or by something you actually cannot name. Dont get me wrong, i am still working on that as well but definitely i am choosing what i want :)

my life is a bit like a video game

so i got back from Van to JP a couple of weeks ago and trying to adjust myself (still.) Only friends make me happy to be here, they are the reason why i am here. But thats not the only reason why i cannot throw everything away and fly to Canada right away... but they are always there for me even when i was away from them, im very grateful :)
without beating around the bush, i just needed time to figure out where should i go what to do. because i have no idea where my life is goin( here i go again ), and still struggling for the past weeks to make my decision... but its gonna be fine i am very reasonable not dramatic... (I've lost my mind!!! lol)
My life is a bit like a video game, sometimes including completing levels, thinking like "oh this is good, i havent fallen in any bad situation yet but suddenly sthg unexpected happens and, shoot gotta go out gotta run the other way!!!" But sometimes its good to get lost and start over. That is called middle of nowhere, isnt that right??
miss my friends and family in Canada xxoo

NEW YORK NEW YORK

Seatlle, Dallas, Chicago annnnd 10days in NYC was just like unbelievably fabulous and fun!! who can't fall in love with this city anyway?! (somebody was actually missing Vancity for the first couple of days believe it or not LOL) As some of you guys know, I WAS ACTUALLY THERE TO WATCH THE BALL DROP<3 I waited for 12 hours only to get into the first section, and we could luckly. i know it sounds insane but it was worth it because you know it seems like a once-in-a-lifetime sort of thing:) funny thing is, most of my friends said it only looked chaos, well its kinda true... lol
That was aaaabsolutely the best beginning of new years dancing and singing along to the best songs(not boring J**songs oops) with strangers and singers. haha Thats definitely the part of what i like about outside my country and needless to say, i bought a lot of stuff literally a lot, one of my favorites is a neckless from Tiffany, yes, that one, Breakfast at Tiffany's for sure.  my love to NYC!
and HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!

Let me just try

Hello everyone, how have you been up to? Had you been scared to wake up this morning on "Dec 21st, 2012"?! How the hell were your feeling if you believed that kinda silly rumor... hahaha:)
im glad that we are all fine anyway :)
It was one of the most incredible days here again. After dinner, we gethered and watched Christmas movie with my host dad&mom sitting on the cozy couch. And then we talked about our life, the view of it, relationships and the lifestyle in Canada and in Japan....
Honestly, i've never ever met someone who has exactly the same idea of lifestyle like my hostdad has. His life and what he believes in life seem perfect for me. I found myself too impressed to try not to cry while we were talking... and he knows Asian culture as well so it makes sense to me when he mentions about the differences. I know its really hard to tell, it depends, but the bottom line is i love to see people enjoying every moment, i love people who actually see people not through job, status or fame and i love people who think they are happy and perfect just the way they are.... 

Thats the reason why i adore here, it doesnt mean i just wanna get out of my country. Lol
Well, im still enough young to figure out so let me just try.