my life is a bit like a video game

so i got back from Van to JP a couple of weeks ago and trying to adjust myself (still.) Only friends make me happy to be here, they are the reason why i am here. But thats not the only reason why i cannot throw everything away and fly to Canada right away... but they are always there for me even when i was away from them, im very grateful :)
without beating around the bush, i just needed time to figure out where should i go what to do. because i have no idea where my life is goin( here i go again ), and still struggling for the past weeks to make my decision... but its gonna be fine i am very reasonable not dramatic... (I've lost my mind!!! lol)
My life is a bit like a video game, sometimes including completing levels, thinking like "oh this is good, i havent fallen in any bad situation yet but suddenly sthg unexpected happens and, shoot gotta go out gotta run the other way!!!" But sometimes its good to get lost and start over. That is called middle of nowhere, isnt that right??
miss my friends and family in Canada xxoo