Let me just try

Hello everyone, how have you been up to? Had you been scared to wake up this morning on "Dec 21st, 2012"?! How the hell were your feeling if you believed that kinda silly rumor... hahaha:)
im glad that we are all fine anyway :)
It was one of the most incredible days here again. After dinner, we gethered and watched Christmas movie with my host dad&mom sitting on the cozy couch. And then we talked about our life, the view of it, relationships and the lifestyle in Canada and in Japan....
Honestly, i've never ever met someone who has exactly the same idea of lifestyle like my hostdad has. His life and what he believes in life seem perfect for me. I found myself too impressed to try not to cry while we were talking... and he knows Asian culture as well so it makes sense to me when he mentions about the differences. I know its really hard to tell, it depends, but the bottom line is i love to see people enjoying every moment, i love people who actually see people not through job, status or fame and i love people who think they are happy and perfect just the way they are.... 

Thats the reason why i adore here, it doesnt mean i just wanna get out of my country. Lol
Well, im still enough young to figure out so let me just try.

"ALL BE BETTER OFF"

All be better off. People tend to think that way in this season. Im definitely one of them :)
Yesterday i was storolling across the street without any aim (THAT is called "FLANER") and step into the shops, from shop to shop... i found lots of stuff catching my eyes and i was struggling with them to get away from. lol I've been thinking abt black big bag with gold chain, fashionable heavy thick watch and flat animal ballet shoes since i came here. but i still couldnt decide.
I bought pretty little heart ring yesterday from original shop and big gold ring from TOPSHOP. Ugh i cannot wait for the luxury trip to the US until the end of this month, lovely!!!!

i will always love you

MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone!

sorry for pissing u off with a little too early greeting. haha

i went to see the Santa Clause parade this afternoon with a friend. I needed to grab some coffee to stay warm on a chilly evening. Because of this event, im in an atmosphere of Christmas already. lol

Ive been pretty much great in any places including internship as a business administration assistant. Its always challenging and i feel so accomplished when i get my works done. ive been working there for 3 months already and finally im going into the final week from tmrw. Officially ill finish everything on 11th but ill take an exam this weekend so... technically this is gonna be my last week.

well... ive got only a month left in Van anyway. ill go to NY from the end of this month to January to spend Christmas and New Year.  Pretty sure ill have the most fabulous and dreamy weeks out there... im thinking its gonna be an luxury gift for myself for what i accomplished which is called "studying abroad" in Canada. Now i can say im proud of myself for what i have been doing for the past 8 months so far. Its never been always easy, to be honest, something has been always tough around me but its because ive never got satisfied with my life; school, communication, differences between cultures, friendships, relationships, hostfamily, co-workers and my dream and over all life. However, im happy and i bet my life in Van was much better than anyone elses! haha  Lets see how my life would be from now:)

i have work tmrw as usual see you guys good night <3

its so flufffy im gonna diiiie!

Hi there! uhhh hhhhhm i adore this kind of time we actually can see the best holiday just right over there!!!!! i go to work from 9am to 5pm for 5days in a week though, we've already gained 1hour (in Canada, we got one hour backward.) So, its not dark when i leave in the morning but on the other hand its completely dark outside at 4pm at least and needless to say its freeeeeezing!

 

Everything has been calm and ive been doing fine:) I just need time thats it, thats all i want so far. Honestly i'd been having terribly busy time because of preparations like resumes and assignments from the company im trying to apply at. you know, its kinda funny that im doing those stuff here despite everything in my heart seems to be reluctant to let me go... lol Well, ill do my best for myself to be the one i really dream of. i hope the company sees any tuition and potential in me somehow. plz plz pleeeease...  anyway, i dont have enough time to read, go to parks, do shopping or even to stroll around in a beautiful weather like this. (usually it rains a lot now) missing everything i used to do so badly, it will stay the same unless i finish this internship.   although cant wait for holidays, i wish all just stop or slow down at the same time... 

*i definitely miss my friends in japan too*

 

 

i am spontaneous and slightly out of control.

go to work, run, swim and get back home.

like... downtown and northvan's back and forth everyday.

its still ok, i've just been just exhausted and also feeling weird because i found myself normal in this city, which is good for me absolutely.

obsessively, i often picture myself in Japan and just become more happy than emotional. but i also get insecure deeply about my ability to follow my desire, then im telling myself, "be brave, be smart, be honest and dont take any sh*t."  lol

Everytime i open my own scrap-book and photos, i get back my enthusiasm and intuition, and be confident in what i am doing and where i am going:)

 

 

look at those cuties! From the left top, cheeks of M.A.C, flats, fluffy boots and funny animal sweat shirts. oh no how can i stop strolling around there...