its so flufffy im gonna diiiie!

Hi there! uhhh hhhhhm i adore this kind of time we actually can see the best holiday just right over there!!!!! i go to work from 9am to 5pm for 5days in a week though, we've already gained 1hour (in Canada, we got one hour backward.) So, its not dark when i leave in the morning but on the other hand its completely dark outside at 4pm at least and needless to say its freeeeeezing!

 

Everything has been calm and ive been doing fine:) I just need time thats it, thats all i want so far. Honestly i'd been having terribly busy time because of preparations like resumes and assignments from the company im trying to apply at. you know, its kinda funny that im doing those stuff here despite everything in my heart seems to be reluctant to let me go... lol Well, ill do my best for myself to be the one i really dream of. i hope the company sees any tuition and potential in me somehow. plz plz pleeeease...  anyway, i dont have enough time to read, go to parks, do shopping or even to stroll around in a beautiful weather like this. (usually it rains a lot now) missing everything i used to do so badly, it will stay the same unless i finish this internship.   although cant wait for holidays, i wish all just stop or slow down at the same time... 

*i definitely miss my friends in japan too*

 

 

i am spontaneous and slightly out of control.

go to work, run, swim and get back home.

like... downtown and northvan's back and forth everyday.

its still ok, i've just been just exhausted and also feeling weird because i found myself normal in this city, which is good for me absolutely.

obsessively, i often picture myself in Japan and just become more happy than emotional. but i also get insecure deeply about my ability to follow my desire, then im telling myself, "be brave, be smart, be honest and dont take any sh*t."  lol

Everytime i open my own scrap-book and photos, i get back my enthusiasm and intuition, and be confident in what i am doing and where i am going:)

 

 

look at those cuties! From the left top, cheeks of M.A.C, flats, fluffy boots and funny animal sweat shirts. oh no how can i stop strolling around there...

beautiful season again

Hi there! Less excitements, calm atmosphere and cold weatherrr... Summer has gone winter is coming here already. I dont hate this season, its totally different from summer look but i think its another amazing aspect of this city.
Both are atractive and fascinate me anyway.
well. Some news from me... it'll take long to describe my feelings because as you know, let me say im sensitive, apparently quite emotional though, so it never be settled. kk

First, ive got a job! Im taking on tons of works as a business administration assistant at college in Vancity. Sounds pretty comlicated but basically what im doing is simple. Answering calls, data uploading, filing and organizing schedules and info. From the next week, ill try to make phone calls to hospitals and companies to invite them to the seminar upcoming in a few months. Everything is different from school but people are still nice.
I miss my school life which i got used to and im still so afraid to face the saddest part with friends but ill be okay. All i can do is just to face, because, look how far i've come...and amazingly wide range of experiences i've had! Is that amazing or what?? I desired to come here alone and now i live in where i wished to death. I feel so blessed no matter what happens. Seize the day thats what i feel. : ) xx

i miss you

July 21 Graduation day

Ive been here for almost 4months. Ive got through lots of goodbyes.

But July... you were the most saddest month ive ever had.

There were some specials i really really didnt want to let them leave. For a few weeks, ive spent time crying everywhere i mean...everywhere i go, we have special memories with somebody. Even with my friend's sweetest encouragements, being apart from them are killing me. i sometimes find out i still have a somber undercurrent inside me. i know only time will solve the feeling, so now telling myself, life's tough just get on with it. Sadly, as long as we have new encounters, i know it's inevitable... many goodbyes are still waiting for me.  i dont cry because its over, i smile because it happened and i still believe i will see them someday:)  Ill see a bunch of new people and they also will make tons of differences in my life just as all my friends did here.

My life, used to stay very normal and calm but happy, now its awesome it is because of all my friends and memories that we've made together. im sure it will stay amazing even i go back to Japan cos i know how would it like be going  outside Japan and we are all bestfriends forever.

much love

３ｒｄセッションおわり！今月もいろんなお別れがあって辛かった(;_:)
ほんと大好きな人たちとの別れはつらい…ブラジル人の友達が多いから余計かも。ほんと遠い～
良いんだか悪いんだか世界ってひろい！TOT
でも日本帰ったらお金ためて行きたいなーなんて思うみんなに会いたいし♥笑

結果だけど今月も受かって、とうとうマスターに行く！
でも今月は簡単じゃなかった。ずっと順調だったのにファイナルでやらかしちゃったの。
大好きなエッセイで期待してた点数取れなくて、リーディングで話でっちあげちゃって。笑
そこで救ってくれたのは、ファイナルスピーキング。ほんとにツイてた★　その場でトピックの紙を引いて、５分で準備、５分間クラスに話すっていう形式のテストなんだけど、運よくわたしは「FASHION」を引いたから準備もなにも(笑)　点数よりクラスメイトからのリピュが良かったのがうれしかったなあ。


じつはちょっと嬉しい報告。
エージェントの奨学金生に選ばれたうえに、日本の新聞社の編集長と記者さんに紹介するって言ってもらえました！　同じ業界の人と交流もつのってたいせつだし、同じ文章を書くっていう業界にあって興味あるからたのしみだなー！
正直エージェントのとこ行くのあんまり好きじゃなくて避けてたの。学校でも日本人の新入生とはあんまり関わらない、こっちで日本語で話されるとイライラするから。でもそこでの出会いも等閑にしちゃいけないね。


お仕事といえば、インターンを９月から始めるにあたって、長い目での“仕事”も本格的に考えてる。
社長さんに、「仕事内容は重要なものじゃなくても入りたい業界に入ってそこで、あ な たが新しい日本版の雑誌の制作をしたら？」って言われて…いきなり夢に飛びついちゃった気がして固まった。。。
信じられないけどそんなことが出来るならすべてを尽くすって誓うし、それこそわたしの夢だから。
社長さんがおなじようなプロセスで自分の会社たてたから、なんだか心強い。
こっちにはいろんなチャンスがあって、人との出会いを大切にする国だからだいすき！
バスでもカフェでもスーパーでも本屋でもどこでも知り合いができるし、みんなオープンで寛容で、でもちゃんと相手との距離もたいせつにするの。最初はびっくりすることもあったけど、今は理解できる。ほんとにたくさんの国の友達が出来て思ったことだけれど、ほとんどの国で男女関係なく人との距離が内面において近い。これは人によるんだろうけど、わたしは日本ももっとそうなればいいのになーって思うよ。少なくともわたしはきっと日本にそれを持ち込むとおもう(笑)